On time, instigator of routine, the sun, yellow as fat. Then the all day what-not of work. Later, fantasize, then television–the dull repetition of make believe–this is the only way to sleep. The bed is cold now, but thickly built of blankets of wool. Sleep there and dream of sleeping there–that way, with luck, twice the rest. Every morning imitates a yesterday. Make the tea, then unmake it in the belly. Like a little drought, let the bread become toast. The windows are eyes; they can’t help but explain the world. Glass paned postcards of weather conditions will ever be this good again. Of course, they can still get worse. Steady as the muscular heart, there’s always this: what, after all, is after all this? Then, as sudden as accident, the vulgar bleat of the telephone: my brother today is father to an entire girl and the qualm, like night’s glistening under the round ball of daybreak, evaporates diamond bright. |